I Know What It Feels Like to Be Lost.
I Also Know the Way Home.
Paul Nuttall. Breathwork Facilitator, Presence Coach, and guide for those ready to reconnect.
The beginning
There was no single moment that changed everything. It began long before I was ready to see it.
I grew up in Southport in the UK, carrying a restlessness I could never quite explain. From a young age I felt different, out of place, searching for something I could not name. I was bullied. I was told in ways both spoken and unspoken that I was not enough. I absorbed that message deep into my bones and spent the better part of two decades trying to outrun it.
I travelled the world looking for the thing that would finally make me feel at home. Country after country, fresh start after fresh start. What I could not see for a long time was the one recurring theme in every chapter of my life. Wherever I went, I was there. The emptiness I was running from was not behind me. It was inside me.
Japan was where I stayed longest. Five years. It was also where I came closest to losing everything.
Two mirrors
I had been drinking heavily, numbing a loneliness I did not know how to face. One night I blacked out and collapsed face first into a drain in the freezing Japanese winter. A stranger found me and drove me to safety. I woke up the next morning to a friend turning on the light and telling me to look at myself. My face was cut and bleeding. I had no memory of what had happened.
That mirror showed me something I could no longer look away from.
A few months before that night I had felt a deep knowing to go home. I did not understand why. When I arrived my mum told me my sister Claire was in hospital. I went to see her that night. She died a few hours later.
Claire was sixteen years older than me. She had spent her life drinking to numb the pain of childhood abuse. Her body had given up. She died of liver failure.
Two mirrors. My sister's life. My own face. The same wound. The same numbing. The same loneliness.
I stopped drinking. I lost weight. I lost friends. When I stopped numbing, the people around me who were still numbing slowly disappeared. In the silence that followed, I began for the first time in as long as I could remember to actually feel.
The path inward
What followed was not a straight line. It never is.
I asked for guidance one night in Japan, something I had never done before. That night I had a vision so clear and so specific that I have never forgotten it. A being in a cave asked me what my mission was. When I answered wrongly it struck me with its staff. When I finally said the right words, it made me repeat them three times and asked if I was making a promise. I said yes.
My mission is to help people heal themselves so that together we can heal the world.
Five months later I moved to Portugal, exactly as the vision had shown me.
In the years that followed I trained as a Primal Health Coach and discovered the power of nourishing my body from the inside out. I found breathwork and trained as a SOMA Advanced Breathwork Facilitator. I sat with sacred ceremony for the first time in South America and was confronted with everything I had been running from. The medicine showed me without mercy that I had never truly loved myself. That beneath all the searching and all the numbing was a little boy who had been told he was not enough and had spent his entire life believing it.
That was the beginning of the real healing.
I trained in Reiki and became a Reiki Master. I deepened my understanding of the inner world through IFS informed work, training through The Moxie School. Slowly I began to understand that the wounds I carried were not only mine. I was carrying the fear of my mother, who carried the wounds of her father. Generations of pain, passed silently from one to the next, living in my body as if it were my own.
When I healed it, I healed it for all of them.
Where I am now
Today I stand in a place I once could not have imagined.
I love myself fully. I have released what was never mine to carry. I have forgiven what needed to be forgiven. I am still evolving, still growing, still being called forward.
I spend time in nature whenever I can. Hiking, being outside, letting the earth do what it does. I dive deep into my own inner knowing as a daily practice. I am still doing the work, just from a very different place than where I started.
After my marriage ended I found myself alone again in a foreign country. But this time I was a different man. No longer running, no longer numbing. It was during this time that Heather came back into my life. We had met briefly before, when she had been in the room for one of my breathwork sessions. What began as friendship grew slowly and naturally into something neither of us had planned. She has been a pillar of strength and belief, encouraging me to step into my fullest expression and walking alongside me in this work. Together we are building something neither of us could build alone.
Why I do this work
I share my story not because it is unique. But because it is not.
Because somewhere in these words you may have recognised yourself. The loneliness. The numbing. The quiet sense that you have to carry it all alone. The feeling that something is missing but you cannot quite name what it is.
You are not broken. You are disconnected. The way home is through the heart.
I created this work so that you do not have to find your way back alone. So that you have someone beside you who has walked this road, who knows the terrain, and who knows beyond any doubt that reconnection is possible.
Because if I found my way home, so can you.
"Paul has a way of creating safety simply by being present. He listens deeply. Not just to what is said, but to what is avoided. He is the first guide who never tried to push me into a better version of myself. Instead, he showed me that there is always one small, honest step available."
Andreas, Lisbon
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